Second chances

 

I met him

On a random day of September

When the heavy clouds were crying and screaming forcefully,

Matching the pieces of my conflicted heart.

They were like trying to express

Something,

Anything

To make their presence known so desperately,

To be heard in the stone cold silence

Enveloping the world at the moment

But it was like nobody paid attention.

Nobody even cared.

I was walking on the sidewalk alone

Passing through crowds and crowds of too busy people

Hurrying to their comforting yet lonely homes

Slightly wondering

How could I feel so broken inside,

How could I forget my own identity

Being in front of such a reckless masterpiece

Developing through my own blazing eyes.

I was mesmerized by the unspoken power of the world’s creation

Yet the life in me was slowly slipping away.

I was drown in my own selfish thoughts,

Resigned of my troubled past

And yet scared of the future,

Of life,

Of myself.

I didn’t want to admit then,

To acknowledge,

To let myself wholly feel

the heaviness my heart carried

for so long.

I was defeated by my own self

And thought I could never do anything to change it.

I didn’t believe in second chances at all

Because I wasn’t in some overly cheesy movie

It was such a foreign concept to me.

Perhaps that is why I felt

A pair of curious and piercing eyes staring

Intensely,

Curiously,

Utterly,

Not at me

But through my very own soul.

It was like he had the ability to fix back the pieces

Into the place they belonged

Like a lost game of puzzle

Only that the puzzle was the way to my heart.

He sparkled something in me,

He ignited a long forgotten fire into my soul

Which I didn’t know it even existed anymore

In just a couple of mere seconds.

His intimidating yet captivating aura

Instead of pulling me away from the unknown,

It only pulled me closer and deeper to each other.

It was something I never experienced before

Raw,

Pure,

Fascinating,

Different,

Simply unique.

My head was spinning

My heart was bursting out of my chest

My mind was screaming at me to just run as far as I can,

That I couldn’t stand another one

In my too long series of dissapointments.

The connection and desire were so much stronger though

Putting my heart in charge of my actions and feelings

For once,I felt peaceful with myself.

We were smiling softly at each other and

The world seemed like a happy place again

Still the same burning sensation remained

And deep inside of me,

I wasn’t able to comprehend that

In a sea full of people,

He was the only one brave enough to see me

The real me.
 And suddenly,I didn’t feel alone anymore.

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