The pursuit of happiness

  At the end of this challenging,yet indeed rewarding year that flew more quickly than I could comprehend,I choose to reflect upon myself and my most beloved treasures.

  Looking in retrospective,I believe that this year brought me more than I could ever hoped for.I laughed a lot.I cried.I smiled.I loved deeply.I cared.I won.I learned.I did.I achieved.I lived.There is nothing more gratifying than simply acknowledging all the emotions that have enveloped me,that I have felt with such an intensity,as well as that have been a part of me during all the encounters I had this year.To feel whatever I felt the need to,without any constraint,remains one of the best feelings in the world.To be able to express myself in order to find answers to whatever I was looking for on my own is the greatest way to know,discover and love myself more each day.Still,I am incredibly overhelmed by every single thing,experience,lesson and blessing that I have the power to count.Regardless of its nature,each moment was different and was meant to made me feel something.That something made me evolve,think further and broaden my horizons in ways that I didn’t even dared to think about before.

  You see,if is one thing that I don’t believe in,that is coincidences.Thefore,I am aware that everything that I have been through,both good and less good,was destined for me and was something that I could handle.Better or worse,time had told or showed me.Either way,reflecting upon this,I do not think that my sorrows or bad times didn’t play a massive part in my self-development process.I like to see them as essential pages,without this chapter couldn’t be truly complete or without I couldn’t treasure and acknowledge my happiness entirely afterwards.

  As this year slowly draws to a nostalgic close,I feel the need to express my pure emotions towards everything I have obtained,as well as I have lost,every memory that I am filled with in my heart and soul,every person that I have met and  that have managed to change me in ways I couldn’t imagined.I could not wrap my mind on how I have all these people by my side and all the loving memories to hold onto and to treasure deeply.

  I feel a better,happier and the richest person here just by thinking that my life had and will always have the same pursuit that will continue to guide me faithfully throughout this crazy journey-happiness.

  May this new year lead you to discover your own pursuit and to never,ever give up on anything that makes your heart race.That’s what life is all about.

           

The power of thank you’s

  Saying that you made it is easy.Saying that you feel content for what you achieved is easier,even if you don’t feel like it for real.Saying that everything is yours to deserve might be the easiest thing to do.However,saying a mere “thank you”,from the bottom of your heart,to the ones who helped you along the way,who stood by you day by day,who simply were there,may not be that easy to say it out loud.The question that left me wondering is why? 

    It is said that the best kind of people come in your life unexpectedly,at the time when you were left hopeless,lonely,in need of guidance,perhaps when your soul wasn’t completely happy.They manage to sneak into your life,to steal your heart and to never give it back to you.In a short period of time,these people prove to you what older friends couldn’t or didn’t even want to.That is a real friendship based on love,trustworthiness and honesty.The moral qualities that you have searched in so many,but have found only in a few.When you come across these kind of people,I want to tell you just one thing:keep them.Keep them with all you have got.Don’t make your life all about them,but make your life happier by being and growing together.Moreover,thank them.For every little thing.Thank your friend,your lover,your beautiful mom,your dad,your annoying sibling,even a random stranger that made your day,your neighbor.There is always someone or something that you have to be thankful for simply making a difference.You just have to acknowledge their importance into your life and start cherising every moment deeply.Right now.Trust me,you do not know when it is over.

     During my years through life,I have come to realize that gratitude represents the essence of happiness.The more grateful you are,the happier and lighter you become.There is no bigger satisfaction than being surrounded by the ones you love and the best way to cherish them is to show them your gratitude towards every single thing,big or small,that they do for you.You can do no wrong by expressing sincerely and out in the open your inner feelings and more importantly,proving them to the ones you truly care about.

    Taking into consideration what I’ve just rambled about,I believe so much in the unspoken power of a “thank you”.I believe in people and the raw way of healing one another through love.I am sure that even if you don’t realize at times,for most of them,a mere “thank you” does wonders because it shows that their efforts,commitment,love and appreciation towards you never go unnoticed.

    Earnestly,it is the simplest and easiest way to spread your love,your kidness,your emotions and the safest way to ensure the joy of tomorrow.Everything that you have,that you achieve,that you represent is a team work between you and your soul people.Let’s not take a single person in life for granted,either if they are a blessing or a lesson.So just say,from the bottom of your heart,”thank you”,as often and as loud as you can.Do it.

  

My dear 18

          Last week,I turned 18.Some may assume it is just an usual age that I have to go through,or that I’m just slightly older and more vacant,yet,in all honesty,I’ve never felt so good.So full of love,joy,strength and elation for what is to come next,for the future which is slowly,but surely shaping into my present.

         I cannot lie and tell you that I’m not quite nostalgic about the outstanding power of time and the incredibly fast way it flies,without any questions for our humble human condition,whether or not we are ready to reach the next step in our lives.Nothing prepares us for what are we going to receive,live or feel.Perhaps that is why life itself is a mistery,an unique journey into the unknown,with nothing such as maps,instructions or backways.All you have is you on this one-way road.You are everything that matters.

         However,I like to believe that whatever life has in store for us,it would be so much better than we have ever possibly imagined.That is exactly what happened to me.

        Reaching the age of 18 years old and officially entering the “adulthood”,I must confess that although I look the same,I feel the same way about my life,about myself,I am filled with so much more positive energy,love,trust in my own fierceness and faith that give me so much power to look forward to living my beautiful life to the fullest.I may be a little bit sad about growing up so quickly,yet I know that every chapter of my life means more valuable memories and experiences to hold onto and treasure deeply.I am surrounded by a few,yet extremely precious people who makes me feel every day like I am the luckiest girl alive.Earnestly speaking,I feel blessed and filled with such a strong sense of contentment and pure joy just by thinking about that.It’s surreal.

      What I am trying to highlight is that every single age comes with something thrilling,new,fascinating and brings us so many incredible things that we cannot even realize at time,such as wisdom,maturity,more power of understanding and perception,as well as  love for your inner self,with whom you have made it through it all.It is indeed crazy how time is running,yet I love to believe that we become richer in thoughts,happiness,memories and knowledge only by growing up,constantly evolving,improving ourselves and discovering the breathtaking beauty the world truly holds.There is nothing more gratifying that living the moment with the most intensity and knowing that everything that it is destined for you,whether it is a person,a situation or a thing,will eventually find its way into your life,one way or another,under the most unpredictable circumstances.Either way,let it be.Let everything come to you naturally.

   All that it takes to be happy is to live gracefully,to love deeply,with all of your being,without expecting anything in return,to spread kidness and to know within yourself that you deserve the greatest things in the world if you wholeheartedly believe in your own self.

       Oh,and as a little gift for you,I am going to post some photos from me and my brother’s super sweet 18’s birthday party,where I realized that every moment spent with your beloved ones is absolutely worth a lifetime.

Change-The chance to pursue your dreams?

   If is one essential thing I have learned and have counted on it faithfully by now,is that change is so damn good and such a bold move for those who dare to live.Be it about a change in your daily behaviour,thoughts,feelings,a change of background,a change of places ,of work,of plans or even a major change in your self development process,there is always something benefic,inspirational and merely refreshing in making a difference.

    With or without our will,we are faced with changes all the time.Life puts us on edge countlessly,in order to bring out what is the best within us,as well as to be a quick challenge for ourselves,whether or not we will lose our authenticity along the road. Regardless its nature,the way we cope with the effects that a change produces in our lives on a daily basis is the main difficulty here.While some may have a clear and healthy perspective of life,thinking with excitement and purely opening their hearts in front of a new opportunity to learn,grow and evolve,others may not have the same attitude of dealing with the insecurities and risks that a change might include.

     Nevertheless,what is right on this matter?

   First of all,change means SACRIFICE.Either we’re speaking about a relationship between two people,a family,a friendship situation or even getting a job or a place in a whole new city/country/state,you have to consider that along the countless hours of hardwork that had finally paid off,there has to be some sort of compromise that you need to overcome and that may or may not stand in the way of your utter happiness.Now,in order to do this,you have to prioritize your feelings,as well as your desires for your own self.You need to stand your ground and truly reflect on what does this new change will mean to you and your loved ones as well.You could answer yourself the following questions:

 Is this change going to be a step closer in fulfilling my dreams?

 Will it make me truly happy and content with myself,regardless how many people I may left behind?

 In 5 years from now,is my decision still going to make me proud?

 What will I gain is better from what will I have to lose in the process?

   Reaching this point,I tend to believe that no amount of questions could compete with your determined heart to achieve what you’ve got on your mind.There’s nothing stronger than what your soul tells you to do.So,just follow it.Follow your heart.Believe in your intuition.They can do no wrong.They would certainly lead you into the best place you could be at that certain stage in your life.

   Secondly,change expects TRUST.To have such a belief and confidence in yourself as to know that the differences and challenges that appear on your journey serve the main purpose of shaping you into a better,wiser,more experienced,as well as a happier human being is something not many people entirely own.Why not? This should all of us be asking.Why should we let fear or doubt dominate our hearts instead of joyful emotions that could actually do us some good,like faith,hope or elation for what is to come next? The world itself is made of changes.

    I guess that what a lot of us fail to realize at times is that believing in your own self is the best thing you could always do,regardless anything that may interfere unexpectedly in our lives.Thruth is,most of the changes that happen in life come  in the most unexpected shapes,perhaps at the most uncertain times.You cannot control what your life is going to bring to you,but you do have a say in what can or can not control you.It is all up to you,from how you look at your own person to how you interpret whatever it is  purposely given to you.Easy as that.

   Lastly,change involves BOLDNESS.As beneficial as change indeed is,it doesn’t always pay an easy price thus it takes a lot of courage to actually go for it and take a step forward towards living your dreams.It may seem unsure,unpredictable,scary at some times,but everything that matters is how you are going to take charge of your life and the decisions,along with the sacrifices you are willing or not to make.

  Personally,I love to embrace every change that comes my way and associate it with an ideal chance to develop myself,to expand my horizons of feeling and thinking,to discover,to learn,to become richer in knowledge and memories,as well as to evolve into the best person I could be.

  How do you perceive the changes you come across in life?

Lionheart

   Today marks a bittersweet day for me.

  Today,I chose letting the memories to  resurface and to mend my soul for no other reason than finding the inner peace I’ve been looking for.At some times,I may have found it but other days,like this one,makes me feel the pain I have wished so badly to erase.

      Quite frankly,how could you define pain?

      What is the first thing your mind drifts to while thinking about pain?

       How could you make it go away?

       How could you accept and eventually live with it?

       Pain could really have a good thing within it?

  It is wisely said that God gives us no more than we cannot handle.Challenges,troubles,obstacles,sorrows,they usually come in the most unexpected shapes,at the most uncertain times of our lives.We cannot deny them,we cannot hide from them like they would dissapear in a blink of an eye,we cannot run far away,we just can’t back down until we are strong enough to face them properly and knock them down.Without any weapon,any help or perhaps any clear judgement,we have nothing and no one but ourselves in this battle.Raw,insecure,vulnerable,scarred,fearful,yet faithful.We are all what we have got.

      As every emotion that we are blessed to experience throughout our lives,I tend to believe that our spiritual development comes closer while going through lifechanging situations in front whom we cannot be nothing else but powerful.We have no other choice left but get up,stand our ground and rise.This crucial feeling of having the strength in front of the unknown is scarcely acknowledged by ourselves,but I guess that a little part within us knows we can do it.This unsignificant portion that is screaming at us that we can overcome any inner struggle that we may deal with and eventually,heal our minds and souls.You know what? Today I chose to believe in that small part of my brain,which told me that whatever I may have faced in the past,whoever I may have lost psyhically along the way could not break me to the point of not seeing my life anymore.

   Thruthfully,pain is,amongst other emotions,the most daring one,which steals so much from us,leaving us wounded,heartbroken,lost,without any further direction or even an escape plan.It hurts a lot,I know.However,I like to believe that despite what we have to lose in the process,we could still gain something back.We could learn something from our heartbreaking moments that had happened to us and manage to expand our horizons of thinking,loving and appreciating every single thing and person we have by our side.

As for me,I think that the pain of loss had taught me a lot about life and its authenticity.I’ve come to learn that regardless the ache that will undoubtedly be printed in our hearts,it could never come close to the pure happiness,priceless memories,laughs,lessons and undying love we had gathered with our dear ones.These are what I will remember the most.

  You need to discover your lionheart and bring out the fierceness you didn’t even know it existed inside you.

Dare to live

   I always used to faithfully believe that life would throw me,besides loving and close to my heart experiences,a couple of dares as well,in order to give me something to work towards to while bringing out what is the best in me.Personally,I love a good challenge,so I thought why not face it with everything I got?

  Perhaps a little insanity from time to time would do me good,would make me become more experienced and confident in the person I am constantly evolving.

    Although I have reinforced my belief in this conception,I admit that I have failed sometimes to realize that my time is nowhere but now.I didn’t dare to believe back then that the power within myself is meant to shine every single day by living my life to the fullest and doing nothing else in addition.Being able to live,smile,laugh with my heart and purely acknowledge the small,the worst,the best,the “okay”,the “try harder” moments of my life without compromising my own happiness and self assurance of my worth in this world are what matters the most to me.

    As years flied by and as wisdom was gradually accumulated,I’ve came to see,feel and wholeheartedly believe that life itself is a dare.An every day bet with your own self.A unique chance to find your inner voice,to develop mentally,emotionally and spiritually,to love deeply,to discover,to constantly learn,to just be whatever the hell you want or feel the need to, without any constraint or for any reason whatsoever.

    I feel like nowadays,people are so impended by these harmful thoughts of doing something worth being alive instead of actually living and accepting every day the way it is.It might not be everything you’d wish for,but that shouldn’t stop you from working hard and reaching your targets.With or without our will,we may take life for granted most of the times,forgetting all about its essence,the one which I could sum up in one word:happiness.

       So,why dare to dream of something mighty and not dare to actually live it?

       What is it up there that is stopping us from living the life we are wishing for?

      Why are we not willing enough to put a fight for what we stand for and desire? If we could dream it,we can absolutely make it reality,regardless anything that may come in our way.

     Just live every single day as it is the last.A little bit cliché,but the magnitude and thruthfulness in these words never fail to make me more and more aware and grateful each day for my strong,beating heart,which is willing as hell to do big.

     Just absorb every moment and treasure it as it is the last you will ever have.We can never take them back nor replace them.

     Just do whatever you feel with the most intense pleasure and love,like it is the last memory you will ever remember.

          Just be.Nothing more,nothing less.

Holding on and letting go

There comes a breaking point in life when the best thing you can possibly do is to let go.The pieces of your heart may be torn or grouped into pain,sadness,betrayal,perhaps regret,into millions of twisted,unexplainable emotions,yet your mind lives.It is always  there,wondering how could you hold on so long onto that certain person.In your most vulnerable state,despite that it might seem like you are absolutely powerless,you have the strength within yourself to allow your mind to take charge and clean up the absolute mess your heart, once again,managed to create,without your knowledge or consent.It could look like the easiest thing to do,to switch from irrationality to rationality,like it’s just an ordinary command on your remote,but the amount of emotional damage is so much stronger,screaming internally at you to just let go.Let go of everything that had taken away your substance as a human being,that had made you feel unworthy,unloved or less important than you utterly are.Your heart may seem defeated at first,alone,with no further destination,but what honestly matters always conquers.And that is the inner you,hidden in the train of your thoughts and underneath your shadows all along.You may have thought the inner you didn’t even exist anymore because most of us have in our human nature this unbelievably big amount of love that easily reaches the love we have for ourselves.We can’t help it sometimes,but I pretty much think we could balance the two of them.

     You see,we have a tendency of loving either too little or too hard.I guess we are ‘all or nothing’ sort of humans.We want to receive love so deeply,we yearn for it all our lives,look for it in every spot,yet we don’t want or know how to give it back,when it is up to us to put our heart out in the open.At least not to the same person that is loving us.That happens a lot,either because we are scared or just plain idiots.But,hey,love cannot be explained,it is only felt.It is totally fair to love whoever you feel on the inside.

     On the other hand,it happens that our love towards someone to be deeper than all the oceans on this Earth and damn crazier than any other fairytale we’ve ever read.I call it the ‘destructive love’ because its core is so unreachable that we get to damage ourselves on the way.In that case,we are absorbed,compelled even,to that love that is fulfilling us emotionally,psyhically and mentally.This kind of love is greater than anything.It holds no limits whatsoever.However,on this unpredictable road,our inner selves are easily forgotten at times,bit by bit,until they managed to dissapear from our daily thoughts at all.That is,I must say,the scariest love of all.That is what makes the whole “letting go” of themselves and “holding on” onto ourselves the hardest to accomplish and put into practice.Here is the turning point,where your authentic self needs to step up and to hold on onto it,while your heart tries desperately to give yet another useless chance.It is a constant battle,whose result always needs to end up with you.

        I firmly consider that no love should be greater or scarier than the love we need to have for ourselves.Not to be narcissistic or delirious,but we are all we have got here.For real.Everyone flies throughout our lives,just like passing birds on the sky going to an always better and warmer place.Or like different pieces of gold,but which turn up to be made from the same metal in the end.That is how it is and you can do nothing about it but learn to love you the most.Not in the way of believing that everything is yours to deserve,but in the raw manner of knowing that you deserve the world if you put up a fight for it.

      I am aware it may not seem this way,but most of the time we are purely options to those who we strongly consider a priority in our lives.It may also take time to notice,but doors are swinging open and close all the time.Nevertheless,the one door which stays still through thin and thick,through sunshine and thunder,through black and white,through happiness and unbearable pain,is you.

       No one should have the right to own you by the love you are wholeheartedly feeling for them.

         No one should ever lose themselves in the process of having somebody else.

         No living soul should ever forget to love themselves in the process of loving someone else.

           Not even you.