Holding on and letting go

There comes a breaking point in life when the best thing you can possibly do is to let go.The pieces of your heart may be torn or grouped into pain,sadness,betrayal,perhaps regret,into millions of twisted,unexplainable emotions,yet your mind lives.It is always  there,wondering how could you hold on so long onto that certain person.In your most vulnerable state,despite that it might seem like you are absolutely powerless,you have the strength within yourself to allow your mind to take charge and clean up the absolute mess your heart, once again,managed to create,without your knowledge or consent.It could look like the easiest thing to do,to switch from irrationality to rationality,like it’s just an ordinary command on your remote,but the amount of emotional damage is so much stronger,screaming internally at you to just let go.Let go of everything that had taken away your substance as a human being,that had made you feel unworthy,unloved or less important than you utterly are.Your heart may seem defeated at first,alone,with no further destination,but what honestly matters always conquers.And that is the inner you,hidden in the train of your thoughts and underneath your shadows all along.You may have thought the inner you didn’t even exist anymore because most of us have in our human nature this unbelievably big amount of love that easily reaches the love we have for ourselves.We can’t help it sometimes,but I pretty much think we could balance the two of them.

     You see,we have a tendency of loving either too little or too hard.I guess we are ‘all or nothing’ sort of humans.We want to receive love so deeply,we yearn for it all our lives,look for it in every spot,yet we don’t want or know how to give it back,when it is up to us to put our heart out in the open.At least not to the same person that is loving us.That happens a lot,either because we are scared or just plain idiots.But,hey,love cannot be explained,it is only felt.It is totally fair to love whoever you feel on the inside.

     On the other hand,it happens that our love towards someone to be deeper than all the oceans on this Earth and damn crazier than any other fairytale we’ve ever read.I call it the ‘destructive love’ because its core is so unreachable that we get to damage ourselves on the way.In that case,we are absorbed,compelled even,to that love that is fulfilling us emotionally,psyhically and mentally.This kind of love is greater than anything.It holds no limits whatsoever.However,on this unpredictable road,our inner selves are easily forgotten at times,bit by bit,until they managed to dissapear from our daily thoughts at all.That is,I must say,the scariest love of all.That is what makes the whole “letting go” of themselves and “holding on” onto ourselves the hardest to accomplish and put into practice.Here is the turning point,where your authentic self needs to step up and to hold on onto it,while your heart tries desperately to give yet another useless chance.It is a constant battle,whose result always needs to end up with you.

        I firmly consider that no love should be greater or scarier than the love we need to have for ourselves.Not to be narcissistic or delirious,but we are all we have got here.For real.Everyone flies throughout our lives,just like passing birds on the sky going to an always better and warmer place.Or like different pieces of gold,but which turn up to be made from the same metal in the end.That is how it is and you can do nothing about it but learn to love you the most.Not in the way of believing that everything is yours to deserve,but in the raw manner of knowing that you deserve the world if you put up a fight for it.

      I am aware it may not seem this way,but most of the time we are purely options to those who we strongly consider a priority in our lives.It may also take time to notice,but doors are swinging open and close all the time.Nevertheless,the one door which stays still through thin and thick,through sunshine and thunder,through black and white,through happiness and unbearable pain,is you.

       No one should have the right to own you by the love you are wholeheartedly feeling for them.

         No one should ever lose themselves in the process of having somebody else.

         No living soul should ever forget to love themselves in the process of loving someone else.

           Not even you.

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Top 5 memorable songs of Sia 

 

Sia Kate Isobelle Furler
,globally known as Sia,is an Aussie songwriter,record producer,music video director and one of the greatest voices of all times.Born on 18th of December 1975 in Adelaide,South Australia,Sia’s tumultous,roller coaster like,yet earnestly admirable road to success and mental,psyhical and spiritual recovery is one worth the recognition and story-telling.

    At only 22 years old,she had released her debut studio album,named “Only See” on Flavoured Records in Australia,while at 33 marked her first album to chart in The United States at number 26 on US Billboard 200 only for now,to become of the most rated and loved singers in the pop industry,with her seventh and latest album making headlines all over the world,titled “This is acting”.

      Regardless if you had listened to her music once or twice in your lifetime,had heard her randomnly on radio or had not seen her at all before,I’ve got you covered with some of the less known facts about one of the best artists of our generation.You can thank me later.

  • Although she had been working in the music industry for over twenty years,Sia’s smash-hit “Chandelier” from her sixth studio album “1000 Forms of Fear” made her popular amongst Hollywood and got her the notoriety and fame she would have well deserved way before.It’s kind of odd for her long-standing fans(myself included) ,but I guess that everything happens for a reason.Also,it was certainly worth the wait,considering her professional ascent in the following years.
  • Her career in singing actually began in a local band named “Crisp” in the mid-1990s,which lasted until 1997,when Sia took the status of a solo musician.
  • She began touring across The United States for the first time in 2005,when she moved in New York due to having problems connecting with her audience and poor promotion by her record label during her first three albums.The following years included releases of her fourth and fifth studio albums,titled “Some People Have Real Problems”in 2008 and “We are born” in 2010.
  • Sia’s outstanding voice made her flexible in reaching several music styles over the years,including hip-hop,funk and soul.However,at her main core remained pop music,which devoted her.

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  •    Amongst her international recognition,she received several awards,including 8 ARIA Music Awards,1 MTV Video Music Awards,1 Rolling Stone Australia Award,as well as scoring 6 wins for APRA Awards.

    

Since you still have yet to discover the incredible Sia,let me ease your job by presenting my top 5 fav songs of Sia of all time.Believe me,you will be mesmerized.

 1.Sia-Fire meet gasoline

 

    This is undoubtedly,my absolutely favorite song.Ever.Since I heard it for the first time,it sparkled something real deep within me,which made me fall in love with it a lil bit whenever I listened to it.It still gives me unexplainable chills.

     This record is from her sixth studio album,”1000 Forms of Fear” and was written by Sia,Greg Kurstin and Samuel Dixon.

FUN FACT: The official music video was not so official and neither was the single,whereas the purpose of it was to promote Heidi Klum’s Lingerie Collection,where Sia only licensed the song.Either way,this song is gold.

    I don’t know what got to me and what exactly blew my mind,either her amazing vocals,the love story itself that it is so beautifully portrayed or the soulful lyrics,what’s certain is that her rawness and uniqueness as an artist and as a vocalist are shining brighter than ever through this masterpiece.

     FAV LYRICS“Fire meet gasoline/I’m burning alive/And I can barely breathe/When you’re here loving me.”

     I am portraying an addictive and perhaps a toxic type of relationship,which describes such an overhelming and intense love,that ended up with damaging both of them.

2. Sia-Chandelier

    “Chandelier” is the lead single from Australian recording artist Sia’s sixth album,which drove her to some of the highest musical achievements thus far.The single attained widespread success,charting within the top five on record charts in 20 countries,including Italy,Poland,Australia,France and Norway.It has also reached number 8 in The United Stated on the Billboard Hot 100,becoming Sia’s first single as a lead artist to appear on the Hot 100.

   The song even received nominations at the 57th Grammy Awards for Song of the Year,Record of the Year and Best Pop Solo Performance,with its video receiving also a nomination for Best Music Video.

     It was viewed on Youtube over 1.2 billion times,becoming one of the most viewed and praised videos of all time.Quite impressive stats,right?

    In essence,”Chandelier” is about the consequences of alcoholism and the way it is viewed,without rationality,through the perspective of a “party girl”,which despite the thrill and excitement that it surely involves,it still ends up being a big mistake on the next day.Well,I guess that’s a pretty common subject.

    Okay,and can we focus on those vocals? I love how distinctive,intense and hoarse her voice sounds on her records,she is truly something else.

   FAV LYRICS:“1,2,3,1,2,3 drink” ,just because it reminded me of a good ol’ party.And that I’m thirsty.

3. Sia-Bird set free

   “Bird set free” is the first promotional single from her latest album,”This is acting”,released on the 3th of November 2015.It was written in collaboration with one of her good friends,Greg Kurstin,who had also produced the song.

       I choose sharing with you a live performance of this masterpiece on one of my favorite TV show’s ever ,Ellen’s Show,with the purpose of showing to you how crazily good her vocals truly are,without any alterations in the studio.I mean,those high notes are everything.Her authenticity and the way she is pouring her heart out on stage never cease to amaze me.

      Oh,and I love how she weaves in such a special,yet pretty unconventional way her songs with the art of dancing.Each one of her talented dancers portrays a story,with endless meanings,that holds no limits in imagination or fantasy,making her stand out easily from the crowd of artists nowadays.

FUN FACT: In an interview with Rolling Stone, Sia revealed that the song was written for the soundtrack of “Pitch Perfect 2”,but they rejected it in favour of “Flashlight” by Jessie J.Then,she pitched it to Rihanna, who rejected it,then to Adele, who initially recorded it,but let it to Sia in the end.I simply couldn’t envision anyone else singing this piece of art as spectacular and raw as Sia effortessly does.

FAV LYRICS: And I don’t care if I sing off key/ I find myself in my melodies/ I sing for love, I sing for me/ I shout it out like a bird set free.”

4. Sia-You’re never fully dressed without a smile

 

FUN FACT: This is actually one of the few songs that are not written by Sia,which it may be surprinsing,given that most of her songs were created almost entirely by her.Anyway,it was covered by her especially for being included in the soundtrack of The Broadway Musical,”Annie”.

 

   The music video for this song was filmed in New York City and it shows cast members from the 2014 film as they spread cheer to the citizens of New York City by dancing, performing random acts of kindness and holding signs with the word “smile” written on them.

 This cheerful song really makes me wanna smile all the time.How about you?

FAV LYRICS:“Your clothes may be Chanel, Gucci/ Your shoes crocodile/ But baby you’re never fully dressed without a smile/ And if you stand for nothing you’ll fall for it all/ We got all we need, got no more.”

5. Sia-Cheap Thrills

 

     Taken from her seventh studio album,”Cheap Thrills” is the latest single of Sia at the moment,which have already scored pretty awesome records in the music industry.The remix of the song,a featuring with Sean Paul,was released on 11 February 2016 as the second single from this album.

  Commercially,this song became a smash-hit in no time whatsoever,marking accomplishments like certified Platinum for shipments of over 70,000 copies and reached number 6 in her hometown.In Ireland, the song reached number  1 instantly.In New Zealand, the song reached number 3, and eventually certified Platinum for sales of over 15,000 copies. In the UK, it was Sia’s highest chart position as a solo artist, peaking at number 2. In the United States, the song has peaked at number 39 on the Billboard Hot 100.

    With a lot of dancing and partying vibes,along with its unconventional video,Cheap Thrills” has got under my skin and made me sing my lungs out whenever I hear it on the radio.Sorry not sorry,fellow drivers.

      You can also check out the special performance video of the song,where the 13 years old Maddie Ziegler couldn’t be left out.Once again,a mesmerizing coreography,which keeps you in a constant trance.The trio of Maddie and another two male dancers put on a spectacular dance,proving their massive and outstanding talent.

   I guess that now you’re ready to join the big fans’ community,am I right?

 

True calling

I guess I’m struck by wanderlust,

Consumed by the idea of uniqueness 

And rawness

In thoughts,love and places.

I think I’m a wanderess in disguise

With a diary full of exquisite destinations,

An overwhelmingly excited heart,

And a pocket full of dreams

Ready to be caught.

I want to see it all,

I want to live it all,

I need to feel all of it,

Limitless.

Every little city is calling for me

Awakening my senses and adventurous spirit,

I could hear them so loudly,

Devoring my mind,

Yet the blur that it’s my life manages

To keep me away

From the world I’ve been wishing for

Since forever,

But just for now.

 The desire that captures my entire being

Of traveling the world

And finding pieces of myself in every corner 

Is so much stronger,

Making me confident

And absolutely positive

That without a doubt,

I’m going to spend my life

Fullfilling my heart and soul,

Limitless.

“I’m a citizen of nowhere,but belonging anywhere.”

The power of love

Love


Oh,you love

Though you are written in a single word,

You are the only magical thing in which 

I always put my faith in.

You are a whirlind of emotions,moods and feelings

 An everlasting hurricane,

Capturing our heart and soul,

Endlessly.

Happiness,

Lust,

Confusion,

Hope,

Swarming butterflies,

4 AM twisted thoughts,

Passion,

Anxiety,

Are just the beggining to the juvenile love

We get to live wholeheartedly,

Yet despite the unconsciousness of our feelings

You manage to steal 

The best memories in life.

Your greatness,

Undying and untouchable power,

With endless meanings 

And countless visions,

Envelops the world

Into a stronger armor 

Which cannot be denied,

But can easily be destroyed,

Ripped apart 

By the cruel devils,

Who reside in no one but ourselves.

I am still hoping for the day

Where you,dear love,

Will cure the ones who can’t accept you

Or simply don’t acknowledge

Your lifesaving ways 

And spiritual calling 

Of keeping us together.

The Liebster Award

Recently (okay,not so recently,sorry for the delay,life’s been hectic),I had the absolute surprise to receive a nomination for this award,which made me,besides overly excited,very happy and grateful that someone really considered my thoughts and work worth the recognition.

Shamilah,thank you so much!I really appreciate you! You are amazing!

However,I couldn’t entirely accept this award without doing a little bit of research,in order to put myself in theme and figure out what it is truly about.So,for those who aren’t so familiar with what this award consists of(myself included),I got some relevant info regarding it.

1.It is just an “on-line” award,which means it exists on the internet only.What about my chocolate prize? But I thought..Never mind.

2.Its main purpose is to encourage bloggers and give them a boost of confidence,while getting to interact and know each other a little better.I like that.

3.The word “Liebster” has German origins and it means “sweetest”,”dearest”,”valued”,”beloved” and a lot of other similar words.Pretty great,right?

4.It consists of a set of rules,which I’ve learned are actually several versions.I believe they may vary,depending on the person who nominated you.Given the circumstances,I’m going to follow the ones imposed by my fellow nominator,which are:

  • Thank your nominator.
  • Share the award on your blog.
  • Answer the 10 question asked to you.
  • Notify them.

That being said,I’m going to respond the questions with all honesty and that way,you’ll get to know me a little better.Shall we begin,then?

But first,let me take my candies.

1.Who is your favourite author?

Despite the fact that I’m very indecisive regarding my tastes and since I’m still exploring what kind of books I’m more into,I guess I can’t name a favorite.But,I find Emily Bronte quite fascinating,her iconic book”Wuthering Heights” really got to me and made me appreciate her art and authenticity in writing.It’s one of the classics,so I’m going to say it has an endless fascination to me.

2.Who is your biggest blog fan?

I’m going to stick with Shamilah’s answer and say that definitely,my mother is my biggest supporter.And I honestly love that.She’s the first to know when I publish a new post or when a new crazy idea popped into my mind and I wouldn’t have it any other way.She’s the best friend anyone could ever asked for.

3.Why did you decide to blog?

To be honest,this idea of blogging had been bugging me for a while,especially because I fall in love with this art of expressing myself through words each day.It’s such a magical thing to be able to experiment my life by sharing and giving others a glimpse of happiness,hope or some well needed kindness into our world.I think that the inner me have always enjoyed the idea of sharing the experiences,lessons,thoughts,values that captures my mind and soul,that make me who I am,in order to help,inspire and motivate further the ones around me,including myself.I used to write in my diary since I was a little girl all kind of stuff and so I thought I could make a step further into my self development process and self happiness  and start this thrilling journey with you.It’s very exciting and I must admit I am finding unknown pieces of myself through every post I am creating.

Also,I love that being flawed has never felt so good.I am aware that exposing my thoughts and inner feelings to the world may seem like a vulnerable,risky thing,which indeed it is,but I also have came to realize that expressing my inviduality and own differences are a massive part of my human self.Therefore,we all are unique in our looks,characters,opinions and ways of expression.
4.What is your best piece of advice to anyone,as well for those considering blogging?

Listen to your inner voice.Do whatever make your heart bursting out of joy,whether it’s writing,painting,photography,travelling,dancing,screaming from the top of your lungs to your favs songs.Regardless everything that may come in your way,remember that you are the most important and therefore,your passions come first.Express them through blogging or any other form you want,but always feel them wholeheartedly.Find yourself through your own art.That is what truly matters.
5.What is your goal for you blog in 2016?

I think that one of my main goals for my blog,which actually became an important part of me,is to keep connecting to beautiful people from all over the world,in order to be inspired and motivated,and in return,to bring them joy,positiveness and hopefully,some kind of inspiration,too.

This would make me the happiest girl.

6.If you could travel anywhere,where would you travel?

I guess one thing about myself that I haven’t mentioned previously is that I’m a wanderlust type of person.I just love the idea of travelling,getting to know cultures,traditions and unique things about a certain place.I’m mesmerized by what this world has to offer and I want to experience as much as I can,because that’s what makes me spiritually richer.Being a travelling freak (hah,I guess that’s the simpler form for my addiction),I would love to discover the world one step at a time and to fulfill one of my biggest dreams.

But if I could pick one place,Narnia would certaintly be at the top of the list.Who’s coming?

7.What is your favorite movie?

Well,here’s another problem.I have so many movies that I fell in love with that this blog couldn’t fit nearly half of them.What can I say is that every movie holds something special and unique in its own twisted way and into my heart so I find very hard to decide on one favorite.Though,if it’s one damn movie that always gets to me,regardless how many times I had seen him,is Titanic.Shamilah,I have to meet you one day and see it together! It’s a must!

Oh,and “A walk to remember” is very dear to my heart,as well as “Room”,which is the most recent one to me.
8.What is your favorite blog to read(besides your own)?

I’m still discovering people and incredible stories through this world of blogging and I must say I’m touched by most of them.Anyway,the ones that I am following at the moment are so beautiful,powerful and with a lot of inspiration for my complicated and everchanging self.

9.If you listen to music while blogging,what genre is your muse?

I usually don’t listen to music while blogging cause then,I would lose track of my ideas,so I need to be able to concentrate on my thoughts.However,when I’m in a lighter mood or depending on what the topic of my post is about,I will put some music in the background,mostly remixes of my favorite hits.

10.How did you decide on your blog name?

I’m still in the process of finding the right name to fit my personality and concept of my blog.I’m weighting between some options at the moment,but I want to surprise you when I will finally make up my mind.However,any suggestions and thoughts on this subject are more than welcomed and they would be a real help in choosing the best one.

 

My nominations are:

1.Michelle

2.Samantha

3.AlaynaFayth

4.Ramona Crisstea

5.Hana

6.Ameena

7.Burresor

8.Riechel

9.Jo

Thank you for following and being with me on my own crazy road of discovery and growth!I choose you because I would love to know some things about you and get to know each other better!

Can’t wait to see your answers! All the love!

5 times Leonardo Di Caprio left us swooning 

 

   

    Leonardo Di Caprio is,without a single doubt,one of the most humble,talented,successful and greatest actors of all time,who is setting the cinematographic standards to higher and higher levels with each one of a kind role we get to see him portraying into the masterpieces he gave life. Movies like “The wolf of the Wall Street”(2013),”The aviator”(2004),”What’s eating Gilbert Grape”(1993),”The Great Gatsby”( 2013) and the iconic “Titanic” (1997) are just a few of the best rated films in history,which surely left a mark upon the world.

       His carreer in acting is currently blossoming and although he is acknowledged for his amazing skills in the world of cinema,he chose to use this platform for making the Earth heard through plenty of humanitarian actions and programs he is involved in,in order to make a difference into the enviromment.

   So,an outstanding actor,a commited enviromentalist,a good-looking guy…did I miss something?

   Oh,that’s right.With his first Oscar win of his career for the “Best actor in a leading role” in the well-known movie “The Revenant” travelling around the whole world and headlining every newspaper/magazine/article at the moment,Leonardo Di Caprio never cease to make us swoon and be head over heels for him.Whether it’s because some incredible scene from an epic movie,an awards show or some wise words he delivered in some live TV show,Di Caprio could be easily recognized as the epitome of perfection. Girls,you feel me.

   But here’s the thing.Once with Leo’s big and well deserved win,we sadly need to say goodbye to our favorite memes,which kept us entertained on his tumultous road to the Oscars.*crying internally*

     Though,for the old times’s sake,let me remind you some of the best.



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  Now,if you weren’t already impressed with what I’ve just showed you,I’ve got for you some of the best reasons Leonardo Di Caprio made us believe he’s the ideal man.

1.His famous quotes 

   One thing that I truly admire about the actor Leonardo Di Caprio is his authenticity and rawness that he never fails to show through his grand roles.Regardless the genre or the emotional impact that a movie holds,we get to envision Leo being himself in front of a camera.His whole act is pure and his enormous talent is always shining the brightest. So,along with the masterpieces he had given life to,he also managed to create some famous quotes,full of wisdom,that cannot be forgotten or left out from my top 5.

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   By the way,this is a completely improvised line.I repeat,improvised.Surpringly enough,it turned out to be in the film and became the fourth greatest line of all times.Pretty damn good for a 23 years old Leo,right?

      And of,course,this is gold.

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     Don’t swoon yet.There’s more.

 2.His sense of humor 

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 During the opening monologue of the hilarious TV show “Saturday Night Live”, the famous comedian Jonah Hill recreated with Leonardo Di Caprio one of the most memorable scenes from the iconic “Titanic” on Saturday, the 25th of January.

  Jonah Hill was the special guest host on that episode and his monologue contained bad mouthing Di Caprio,who admited that he wasn’t initially the first one on the cast’s list for “The wolf of Wall Street”.As if on cue,Leonardo Di Caprio made his sudden appearance,taking everyone by surprise in order to debunk the lies of his good friend.

  The sketch couldn’t be done without Jonah requesting Leo to “relive” the moment that made our hearts go on(pun intended),saying “Hey Lee, remember when we were on set and I would get really nervous? Can we do the thing we always did every day that made me feel safe?”

   I guess I’m not the only one quite dissapointed we wouldn’t get this chance.Lucky Jonah.

  Oh,and let’s not forget about the famous reaction of Leo at the 2016’s Golden Globes,where his priceless face while looking at Lady Gaga went instantly viral.Although there’s no bad blood between them,we could not but enjoy his hilarious mistake.

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3.His big heart 

   As I mentioned briefly at the begginning,Leonardo Di Caprio is known not only for his acting skills,but because he has an incredibly big heart.Throughout his career,he has been an outspoken advocate for environmental issues,establishing his own foundation “Leonardo Di Caprio Foundation” with the main mission of protecting the Earth’s rights and implementing solutions to build a stronger relationship between humanity and the natural world.Di Caprio also made several films to educate the public about environmental issues,including “The 11th Hour”.


In 1998,he donated $35,000 towards the “Leonardo DiCaprio Computer Center” at the Los Feliz branch of the Los Angeles Public Library ,which happens to be the site of his childhood home.

   He led several innovative fundraising events, raising over $60 million for projects the foundation is developing and supporting. Additionally, in an effort to empower his fans to make a difference, DiCaprio uses social media to inform and inspire the public, showing them ways to take action on an array of issues – from protecting sharks in California and Elephants in Africa to supporting the transition of our society to clean, renewable energy.

     Did I mention that for his 41th birthday,Di Caprio celebrated with a charity bash? Kanye West performed,a PR company shot video footages of the entire evening,all with the purpose of raising money for his environmental foundation. Pretty impressive,if you ask me.

    Do I need to say something more? Of course I do.Can we talk about his man bun,please? I mean,look at him.

4. His unmistakeable talent

  Known for his unconventional roles,Leo started out in television before moving on to the cinematographic industry,scoring his first Oscar nomination for “Best supporting actor” at the early age of 19 for the role in “What’s eating Gillbert Grape” in 1993.

   His early credits included guest appearances on such programs as “The New Lassie” and “Roseanne”. He also landed a role on the dramatic comedy “Parenthood”.

  In 1997,he starred in James Cameron’s drama,”Titanic”,which was the breaking point that showed his potential as a future star.The 90th also turned Leonardo Di Caprio to a major teenage heartthrob. Thanks God.

  With 78 wins and 192 nominations at the moment,Leonardo Di Caprio’s carreer has contributed to some of the best performances of the last two decades and it’s still going strong.

5.Photoshoots

Last but not least,his photoshoots are everything.Although we are accustomed to Leonardo Di Caprio’s physical appearance from today,we couldn’t but be enveloped in nostalgia and sadness when we think about the 90th version of Leo,with that slicked back hair and sexy smirk,doing one of his first photoshoots.Who wants him back,too?

In the studio photos,19 years old Leonardo Di Caprio slays a cozy turtleneck sweater and some oversized pants which matches the misterious look he gives to the camera and smoking a cigarette with his feet.His styling evolution is clear as day,but it doesn’t stop us daydreaming about his early days,when he was able to make us swoon just by giving us this intense gaze.Please,let me bless you with this recently released pics.

 

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Second chances

 

I met him

On a random day of September

When the heavy clouds were crying and screaming forcefully,

Matching the pieces of my conflicted heart.

They were like trying to express

Something,

Anything

To make their presence known so desperately,

To be heard in the stone cold silence

Enveloping the world at the moment

But it was like nobody paid attention.

Nobody even cared.

I was walking on the sidewalk alone

Passing through crowds and crowds of too busy people

Hurrying to their comforting yet lonely homes

Slightly wondering

How could I feel so broken inside,

How could I forget my own identity

Being in front of such a reckless masterpiece

Developing through my own blazing eyes.

I was mesmerized by the unspoken power of the world’s creation

Yet the life in me was slowly slipping away.

I was drown in my own selfish thoughts,

Resigned of my troubled past

And yet scared of the future,

Of life,

Of myself.

I didn’t want to admit then,

To acknowledge,

To let myself wholly feel

the heaviness my heart carried

for so long.

I was defeated by my own self

And thought I could never do anything to change it.

I didn’t believe in second chances at all

Because I wasn’t in some overly cheesy movie

It was such a foreign concept to me.

Perhaps that is why I felt

A pair of curious and piercing eyes staring

Intensely,

Curiously,

Utterly,

Not at me

But through my very own soul.

It was like he had the ability to fix back the pieces

Into the place they belonged

Like a lost game of puzzle

Only that the puzzle was the way to my heart.

He sparkled something in me,

He ignited a long forgotten fire into my soul

Which I didn’t know it even existed anymore

In just a couple of mere seconds.

His intimidating yet captivating aura

Instead of pulling me away from the unknown,

It only pulled me closer and deeper to each other.

It was something I never experienced before

Raw,

Pure,

Fascinating,

Different,

Simply unique.

My head was spinning

My heart was bursting out of my chest

My mind was screaming at me to just run as far as I can,

That I couldn’t stand another one

In my too long series of dissapointments.

The connection and desire were so much stronger though

Putting my heart in charge of my actions and feelings

For once,I felt peaceful with myself.

We were smiling softly at each other and

The world seemed like a happy place again

Still the same burning sensation remained

And deep inside of me,

I wasn’t able to comprehend that

In a sea full of people,

He was the only one brave enough to see me

The real me.
 And suddenly,I didn’t feel alone anymore.

Living life one step at a time

Yesterday,our “Blogging 101” daily assigment was to comment on at least four blogs that spoke to us or we can relate in some kind of way.Although I connected with a lot of people and found myself in their stories and thoughts,I figured that,as today’s assigment told us to create a post based on one of the best posts I’ve stumbled upon,I should share my own thoughts and inspiration I gain from a pretty powerful and beautiful woman.

Coming across Nancy Roman’s blog which,by the way,you must take a look on because it’s so good and incredibly inspiring,was one of the moments when I realized,once again,why creating a blog myself was the wisest decision ever.I think it has to do a lot with the fact that the power,wisdom,love and pure passion which exist beyond the words,our tool of creation in this virtual world of blogging,blossoming into the posts each of us publish,can touch ,mark,empower,encourage and surprinsingly,change your train of thoughts and beliefs.The undeniable  connection between people from all over  the world I find it quite magical and even fascinating because,let’s face it,we just don’t estabilish a bound with anybody.Even with our neighbors or mutual friends is a hard work mission,which you could admit should have been far easier due to seeing the other person you interact with and discover if she/he “clicks” with who you really are.But,you see,what seems easier in the first place is very often not the answer we’ve been looking or craving for.

I must confess that I was touched and very impressed by a variety of blogs by now,mind my “newbie”status,who have this blog a little over two months,including this one I mentioned earlier above.Why? Because I discovered a couple of precious lessons,written in a funny and accesible approach,even for a 17 years old teenager like me.

Nowadays,I feel like the society we are living in strives so hardly to reach and obtain the so called “perfection” of bodies or faces (whatever that means) instead of evolving and growing spiritually or mentally,in order to truly become stronger,wiser and happier human beings.People tend to deny and refuse with any price their age,considering that being old (whatever age that means for them) will cut their chances of a well lived and valuable life.Whatever stage they find themselves in life,they feel the need to change something at them whether by crappy surgeries,dangerous and mostly unsuccessful  treatments or simply anything that could make them be young forever and ever.

Well,although the idea of living forever sounds more appealing to me rather than having the “perfect” body or face or hair,I  don’t get why don’t you just embrace who you truly are?

You can not be young forever,but you have the power to choose every single day if you want to spend your life like one.

Nancy’s post,called “The old woman I will be”speaks very loud to me and define exactly,from her perspective,that being old doesn’t mean you have to feel like one,that considering yourself chained or traped in some kind of cell,without having the power to do whatever you please or want is strongly mistaken.Age is just a number,it doesn’t define you unless you allow it.Truth is you have all the power in the world to do everything and anything,at any day,at any age,at any moment of your crazy ride called life.I,also,firmly believe that every age is a gift which brings maturity,intelligence,more beauty to your heart and soul,a better level of capacity of understanding and seeing the world we are living in,so we need to cherish and be deeply grateful for every single day.We cannot take it back.

The point is that beauty,happiness and love,the real and most intense ones,could be achieved and felt throughout your whole life.You don’t have to constantly run or chase this stereotypical and overrated perfection because it’s a pure illusion that sadly,our twisted society seems to promote these days.Don’t let you get fooled in some of life’s traps.They’re not what matter or count.
What matters the most is you.


 

An open letter to my future self

Dear future me,

   When you will read this,you will most probably have your life figured it out.But not in the way some may think,like having a slightly boring routine or uneventful days.You will hate that.Just like you are doing now.

  What I am certain about is that you will be in a complete awe of living in this world.You will fall more and more in love with everything you see,feel,discover and experience throughout your unmissable journey.Each passing day will bring something exciting,thrillingly beautiful,captivating, which will make you feel alive.Because that is why you’re put on Earth anyway.To be alive,not only to exist.That’s overrated.

  I don’t know how many years will pass until you’ll find this locked in one of your random and hopefully,not so messy drawers.I intend on printing it,just to be close to you whenever you feel like nothing is worth it.I hate to tell you this,but you will feel it at times.I can only pray to be as scarcely as possible.But that will not bring you down,not at all.You will learn that nothing will ever have the power to tear you apart.Except yourself.You’ll figure out that later.When you’ll not be drunk.Joking.I guess.

  Life will bring you a lot of wonderful and unforgettable memories to keep you sane.Do you want to know why? Because you will create them by fighting with all your will and fierceness in achieving your goals,making your dreams become reality and living everyday as it will be your last.As a good giver,you will bring something to the world,too.Do you want to know what? Happiness.So much happiness.Your happiness will become a source of inspiration to others.Your happiness will light others’s path.Your positivity will bring out the best of you and hopefully,of the ones who will be around you,too.Why is that?Simply because you realized,years ago,that happiness is the purest and most intense feeling we are blessed to experience.You always loved being happy and will do everything you can to feel it and to live accordingly.

   Better than that,you’ll help,support and encourage the people you’ll meet across your road by spreading happiness into their minds and bodies.It would not be an easy mission because you will figure out that everyone has a story,a novel written by themselves,full of challenges,beauty,lessons and perhaps inner struggles.It will bring you an unmeasurable sadness in your heart,but it will be the trigger,which will motivate you further and stronger to be there for them,as well as for your own self.To show them the bright side and dissipate the one which controls and whispers them that life couldn’t be happy again.It will always get better.You’ll demonstrate everyone,including yourself,that having persevering faith and hope will lead to miracles.

   Regarding meeting your soulmate or whatever will be called those days,you’ll not even worry about it.You’re tired of hearing this and certaintly,you will look at happiness as a self-evolution and self-growth process,not as being head over heels over a damn guy who gives shitty excuses or doesn’t treat you the way you deserve to be treated.Anyway,you will never accept that.You will learn that you are enough.You are whole.Always was,always will be.You don’t need anyone to complete or to love you in pieces.That’s loads of crap.I’m so glad you learned this by now.

     Moving on,life will give you both good and unfortunate moments.You’re no exception.The way you will handle them is what truly counts here.However,with your positivity cursing through your mind and soul,you will get to look at every obstacle getting in your way as the ideal chance to learn valuable lessons and to discover hidden parts of yourself.Some of them you will never thought they even existed.You will not be scared by them.You will have a healthy and clear perspective of life and will not let it give you a hard time.You’ll see that even when times are tough,you will always have a choice to make.Whether to let the pain dominate your entire being and drown you effortessly into darkness or to rise higher from the shreds of the ground,only to become so much stronger than before.I trust you will choose wisely.

   Oh,and let me tell you about travelling.You’ll become obsessed with discovering new places,cultures,customs and getting to know what make them so special and purely different.Okay,you already were from your teenage years,but you’ll be more and more thrilled about the magnitude of the world.If that could be possible.You will travel the world,just as you wished so badly.You will gain knowledge,love,richness in thoughts,memories and soul,crazy experiences and of course,a one of a kind happiness.The one that consumes you and makes you feel like you’ve made it.Not by chasing money,crappy useless things but by chasing your dreams and being your true self.

You will become a wonderful,proud,ecstatic,independent,overly excited about food and planes woman.I won’t blame you for the last part,though.

You will live every day as a once in a lifetime adventure.

You will wholeheartedly love yourself.Why? Because you are all you’ve got.

You will find your path and follow it faithfully.

You’ll never be alone.

You will made it.I know you will.

 

Love,

Present Me

Who I am and why I’m here

      Who am I?

Well,I never kind of answered to this question to myself before.I mean,I heard it,I even wrote it right here,right now,but never actually thought of it in its deep and meaningful entirety.It’s one of the simplest yet the most complicated question I’ve ever face with in my life.

To start with,I can proudly say that I am the creation of God.And I feel already unique by just that,because to be loved in this unmeasurable way so as to walk on this Earth is an exquisite form of a blessing.The first blessing,along with so many others that I have the power to count and be eternally grateful for.

I am not like everybody else.Nobody is me.I am me.I am different.I am unique.I am perfectly imperfect.Oh,and guess what?I am proud of me,I still love myself and I am thankful for every flaw I have.I am beautiful and I don’t need anyone to tell me otherwise because I would never really believe them.Why?Simply because I know that every single one of us represents an one of a kind beauty.Both inside and out.That makes me smile.And at some times not,noting that not many people are aware of this incredibly powerful fact.It’s really a shame to not acknowledge your power and your beauty in the world.

I am a person,a teenage girl and I feel intensely,I see beauty wherever I take a look,I think way too much,I love madly and I experiment my life in the best way I can.It may be tough,pointless,hard,challenging sometimes,but in the end, it’s always worth it.A road could never miss obstacles or impediments,right?But it’s still the best thing ever.Thruth is we only get to live once.We should make it right.Or as right as we can.

However,seeing that the world,along with its citizens are the pure creation of the so loving God,I often tend to feel like it’s one of my inner missions to create something on my turn,while being here.Anything that make me truly feel happy,content,satisfied,powerful and give me a positive and undeniable energy.So that’s when I began writing.Firstly,through my little diary I’ve received as a Christmas gift from my beautiful mom,I began developing my not so known back then interest.Slowly,but surely,it became a passion,which I could never replace or get rid of.It gave my soul power to speak,wings to fly and a voice,full of confidence,ready to be heard.Something so rarely met.Now,as it became one of my greatest passions,I felt like I could learn so much more by creating a blog.My blog.A blog of anything and everything.I haven’t even categorized in into a certain type,simply because I haven’t found one that could describe me or my twisted personality.I don’t think it exists.Nevertheless,this isn’t what matters the most.

My goal by entering this exciting and thrilling world of blogging was to inspire myself by inspiring the others around me.I wanted and still wholeheartedly want to inspire joy,beauty,positiveness and an immense love through my posts and sayings.This way,I am able to grow and develop myself into a better and so much happier person each day.It brings me an infinite happiness just realizing that I was brave enough to break my walls of uncertainty,create this blog and make my dreams,aspirations and goals alive.

I hope to achieve what I’ve got on my mind and so much more,to dream on endlessly,with my eyes open and to make every day of my beautiful life count by loving and living fully.