I graduated! 

   The last few weeks were eventful,chaotic,full of bittersweet memories,yet the one thing that was on my mind the whole time was the fact that I made it.

     I graduated from high school.

   Earnestly speaking,I cannot comprehend how or where the time had flew.It looks like yesterday I was a junior,with an enthusiastic and overly excited face,bad hair and funny clothes,waiting to embark on this new adventure.I was just a happy child,with no clue about what I was going to experience,learn or discover.I have to admit that the thought of growing up scared me at times.I just didn’t want to.Who would like to give up childhood? Who wants to be a grown up?

  Nevertheless,high school came with so much more that I could have predicted at the beggining.Happy days,proud achievements,long lasting friends,precious life lessons,a whirlwind of emotions are just a few of the moments that truly shaped me into a better,wiser and happier human being.

    As far as I can tell,I had some amazing opportunities during high school to evolve and to exploit the abilities I didn’t believe I had.For instance,I was involved in a couple of national projects from whom I have learned a lot about team work,social skills and patience.My creativity,determination,inspiration and strive were on high demand,always pushing me to outreach myself.The emotional side was developed in ways I didn’t experience before during a particular project,where I discovered that I am blessed in more ways than I can count and that happiness always hides in the littlest of things.You just have to acknowledge this unique feeling and treasure it deeply each day.The results of my work were proudly shown through recognition from my teachers and some diplomas,yet the most important outcome was the feeling of accomplishment and utter excitement while discovering my own self,my own passions and my own desires.These memories would certaintly not leave me anytime soon.

  Regarding the lessons that I have come to learn through great and sometimes,rough ways,I believe they are the essence of my high school years.They weren’t always easy or pleasant enough to bear at the time,yet the fact that I lived them at that certain stage of my life helped me to understand myself better and to prioritize my needs.I realized what path I want to follow.What carreer would make me feel like everyday I’m on a vacation rather than at a boring work place,as well as what is going to bring out the best of me.Some dreams already became reality,some of them not yet.Sure thing is that I am on the right track. Ambition,perseverance,patience and faith never fail to do their magic.

   Finally,four years went by faster than the wind.Four years filled with memories,beautiful events,complicated feelings,sleepless nights,the messed up me was able to get through it all.At the end of this chapter,it is supposed that I am going to be mature and to pave my way towards the future that I am wishing and looking for.This is exactly what I am doing.The funny thing? I am still a child.I always will be.At least this thought eases the guilt whenever I mess something up.

     To mark my words,take a look at some of the pictures I have and that shows me even more excited than when I eat ice-cream.One in a million sight,that’s for sure.

 

 

 

 

 

 

Advertisements

Second chances

 

I met him

On a random day of September

When the heavy clouds were crying and screaming forcefully,

Matching the pieces of my conflicted heart.

They were like trying to express

Something,

Anything

To make their presence known so desperately,

To be heard in the stone cold silence

Enveloping the world at the moment

But it was like nobody paid attention.

Nobody even cared.

I was walking on the sidewalk alone

Passing through crowds and crowds of too busy people

Hurrying to their comforting yet lonely homes

Slightly wondering

How could I feel so broken inside,

How could I forget my own identity

Being in front of such a reckless masterpiece

Developing through my own blazing eyes.

I was mesmerized by the unspoken power of the world’s creation

Yet the life in me was slowly slipping away.

I was drown in my own selfish thoughts,

Resigned of my troubled past

And yet scared of the future,

Of life,

Of myself.

I didn’t want to admit then,

To acknowledge,

To let myself wholly feel

the heaviness my heart carried

for so long.

I was defeated by my own self

And thought I could never do anything to change it.

I didn’t believe in second chances at all

Because I wasn’t in some overly cheesy movie

It was such a foreign concept to me.

Perhaps that is why I felt

A pair of curious and piercing eyes staring

Intensely,

Curiously,

Utterly,

Not at me

But through my very own soul.

It was like he had the ability to fix back the pieces

Into the place they belonged

Like a lost game of puzzle

Only that the puzzle was the way to my heart.

He sparkled something in me,

He ignited a long forgotten fire into my soul

Which I didn’t know it even existed anymore

In just a couple of mere seconds.

His intimidating yet captivating aura

Instead of pulling me away from the unknown,

It only pulled me closer and deeper to each other.

It was something I never experienced before

Raw,

Pure,

Fascinating,

Different,

Simply unique.

My head was spinning

My heart was bursting out of my chest

My mind was screaming at me to just run as far as I can,

That I couldn’t stand another one

In my too long series of dissapointments.

The connection and desire were so much stronger though

Putting my heart in charge of my actions and feelings

For once,I felt peaceful with myself.

We were smiling softly at each other and

The world seemed like a happy place again

Still the same burning sensation remained

And deep inside of me,

I wasn’t able to comprehend that

In a sea full of people,

He was the only one brave enough to see me

The real me.
 And suddenly,I didn’t feel alone anymore.